032822 fate vs. free will

I remember that at one point within the past two years I tried a daily practice of focusing on the three times out minds go to past present and future. I struggle with the future because it’s a fuzzy non-existent place. The past is also fuzzy but it happened and I have reexamined it a lot so I think I know what it is. My work tends to be mining the past for present insight. I wonder if sometimes when I think i’m in the present I’m actually not. 

There doesn’t seem to be a right or wrong in the present. That shows up mostly int the past. This seems relevant to m creative work. I cold try to peer into the veiled future or retell my past but it’s today that is setting me up for whatever is next. I don’t even know what that is. 

There are debates about fate vs. free will. I’m comfortable with both being true at once. You have free will in setting up the routines of your life until it’s ingrained and becomes your fate. What ordered that?

We respond to things very predictably so from the outside of course fate is a thing. When our actions seem unpredictable it is because we don’t have the full story. I can predict my next move a little more accurately than you can. But still we feel we can figure people out and, by predicting what they will do, can control them. This can only really work in our imagination. Once the other person sees through the bonds placed on them in your mind they will break away. This isn’t betrayal this is growth.

Plants are stronger than we are because they can’t hide from the elements, or their attackers. They survive in ways I am envious of. I can’t stand in all weather getting bit, rained on, peed on, and carved into. No, that’s against my delicate nature.