Untangling

I have for a very long time wanted to have a little crafting business. Maybe a factory of one. I have struggled to settle into a definite product line. I want to explore and try everything. 

And 

I don’t have the energy for it.

One snarl is the messages coming from the humans around me. I struggle to know what I have to really pay attention to. I often feel that I am making decisions for the first time ever with out any knowledge of what is my path. Many days I feel that I am grasping on tight to some bar as events careen by me. Some how by clinging to a thing I think I can control it slow it down. Thing just move really fast and I can’t keep up.

Some things must be done on faith. I have to trust that if I do invest in a studio it will be paid for. Still it is scary. 

One human confessing humanity over here.