Reputation Point day 2: Reflection

It was another busy week. The drawing I made this time isn’t exactly a picture of what I think my reputation is but it is the one I made this week and it took a while because there is so much going on in it.

I have no idea what my reputation is. haha!

Reputation Point day 1: facing the point

It’s a window. There are curtains on it. There’s a crack in the ceiling from the light to the wall. There isn’t much room to do things there. So it will be relatively empty. The guitar had been under the window but I did move that book case that had been to the right of it and so the guitar is now just to the side of the line toward the marriage point.

So what does this bring up? Well, really my reputation is out of my control. In a lot of ways it ends up being window dressing! This window dressing may not reflect the direction I need to go in. I’m increasingly thinking that for me it is better to maintain a minimal environment. Lot’s of space. This might be because I feel kind of crowded in my head frequently.

This room is not warm. Loading it with objects or piling fabric in here might help but then I’d feel closed in and that I couldn’t move. I have the goal of keeping things off the floor. This will mean some deep editing, getting rid of the crap left over form failed projects and whatever. Part of me was all for making me use the stuff but that has turned into a burden not worth bearing. I want to be efficient.

Anyway what do I want my reputation to be? Not sure. It’s a tricky thing to voice. I want to be friendly but not too friendly. Accomplished in what matters to me. I think my reputation is easygoing, wise, patient, but I’m not sure. Whenever a self assessment asks about what others think of me I get frustrated because I don’t know there are many people in the world and they don’t see the same things in me.

It seems that this point will not need much done to it or around it. Maybe change out the curtains but that’s not such a quick thing. I still have the other curtain rod to deal with. I suppose looking at the room in general one thing that would align it better with the sort of person I hope to be would be upgrading the furniture to something coherent and not so slapped together. I could have a more proper bead stead and shelving situation over here. Yeah, today’s thing is getting rid of the stuff on the floor and moving it along. I could do a thrift store run this week, tomorrow maybe even. But I can’t let this project distract me from doing the taxes. I think this is about all I have to say.

Health and Family Point: day 2 assessment from the point

I have discovered a very nice little nook situation by sitting here. I am between the bed and a book shelf unit. I can see all the windows in this room and none of the doors. Wow, I hadn’t realizes that from here I can’t see three of the points; knowledge/spirituality, career and travel/networking are invisible. It has been the case for years because of how this room demands the bed be positioned and the fact that I do not sleep well facing doors.

There is a large window in front of me, we are on a corner and this is the corner room exposed to view of two streets. I like the window to a point. I have put two layers of curtains on it. The one closes to the window acts as a diffuser and privacy screen the one closer is for blocking out some light and decoration. It has butterflies flying upward printed on it. But the curtain rod is pulling away from the wall.

I see the play/child point clearly that is the first one I notice because of course it is across from the HF point. There is a tripod there right now and the window nothing else the floor is basically clear. Space for dancing you know.

The marriage corner is a hot mess. It would be better empty. I can see the bookcase from here and it is full of dreams, aspirations and half done things, and probably flat out junk. Oddly the filling cabinet is in that area too on the border between marriage and reputation.

I wonder if there is a masculine direction and a feminine direction to moving through the bagua map. Like, they start in family and the male goes into knowledge, career, travel, children, marriage? Woah, that doesn’t exactly fly, but might. The female would go wealth, reputation marriage. This makes sense with the traditional way marriages were done. Not what I thought would come up.

As to me here and now, from this point I see that there is a cut off or divide between knowledge, career and networking, and the health and family aspects. I can see the house plant though and this is where the hook that holds the bells and jewelry is this hook is not visible to half the room. But what does this bring up as far as what I want my family life to be like?

Yesterday I concluded that this point is about food. We can think of what feeds us: music, story, and ceremony feed us. Interacting with safe people feeds us. The family is a group that I can relax and play in. It is also a source of nourishment and refuge for healing. It should be comfortable but not too comfortable. In some ways having it buffered from the career makes sense. Especially in this culture where career is a monster that can take over your life and boss you around if you aren’t careful.

Is there an action sitting here suggests? Well, putting away the tripod. That doesn’t need to be there. Right, and doing something about the curtain rod. And clearing out the clutter in the marriage corner especially the stuff on the floor. Freedom of movement seems important. Having the floor clear signals to me that there is space to move in.