Reputation Point day 1: facing the point

It’s a window. There are curtains on it. There’s a crack in the ceiling from the light to the wall. There isn’t much room to do things there. So it will be relatively empty. The guitar had been under the window but I did move that book case that had been to the right of it and so the guitar is now just to the side of the line toward the marriage point.

So what does this bring up? Well, really my reputation is out of my control. In a lot of ways it ends up being window dressing! This window dressing may not reflect the direction I need to go in. I’m increasingly thinking that for me it is better to maintain a minimal environment. Lot’s of space. This might be because I feel kind of crowded in my head frequently.

This room is not warm. Loading it with objects or piling fabric in here might help but then I’d feel closed in and that I couldn’t move. I have the goal of keeping things off the floor. This will mean some deep editing, getting rid of the crap left over form failed projects and whatever. Part of me was all for making me use the stuff but that has turned into a burden not worth bearing. I want to be efficient.

Anyway what do I want my reputation to be? Not sure. It’s a tricky thing to voice. I want to be friendly but not too friendly. Accomplished in what matters to me. I think my reputation is easygoing, wise, patient, but I’m not sure. Whenever a self assessment asks about what others think of me I get frustrated because I don’t know there are many people in the world and they don’t see the same things in me.

It seems that this point will not need much done to it or around it. Maybe change out the curtains but that’s not such a quick thing. I still have the other curtain rod to deal with. I suppose looking at the room in general one thing that would align it better with the sort of person I hope to be would be upgrading the furniture to something coherent and not so slapped together. I could have a more proper bead stead and shelving situation over here. Yeah, today’s thing is getting rid of the stuff on the floor and moving it along. I could do a thrift store run this week, tomorrow maybe even. But I can’t let this project distract me from doing the taxes. I think this is about all I have to say.