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It’s hight overcast his morning, an in between kind of mood. Thankfully not glaring bright.

I do worry about having a schedule where I can’t sleep in. I did that before but now I am older and my body doesn’t like it. the parts that are most affected are louder. That’s not todays situation but I will start a new job soon so my mind is trying to get ready.

There are days when you don’t have so much to say and what you had been thinking of was The Lion King. Why are hyenas “always” the bad guys, not even brilliant bad, just average bad? I would be interested to see a story line that showed the hyenas rebel successfully against Scar. That would be interesting.

Lions being the king of the animals was an imperial British idea anyway. It might not have originated with them but they ran hard with it.

The right brain controls the left body isn’t this yin controlling yang? They say the left brain is the one we are more conscious of. I do want to hear from the right side. I want to have the space for that. If I could be in both places the visionary mind and the get shit done mind that would be great. I guess that’s an artist goal.

Zen creates space. I’d be interested in a Christian Zen. isn’t Zen really a style or aesthetic of Buddhism? The practices are neutral it just depends on what it’s dedicated to and does it produce good fruit. 

I do this writing practice to be connected to the present, to have a flavor of my thoughts from now. I’ve been working on a difficult part of my memoir and was slipping into the feelings and thoughts of back then. I don’t want that because it will make doing the today things weird.

The bag making idea is back. I want to wait for some paychecks to kick in before I get a new sewing machine. So for now I keep developing patterns and thinking of what I would need to set up a good shop space.